Judgements affect the direction of your glance, which deflects into every aspect of your present situation-- to me as well as that pathetic businessman, that jobless slacker, that stupid Barbie. Judgements, my own and theirs alike, making this abject alone-ness, this newspaper, this chair.
I have been a dick about answering the phone and returning calls- this always happens when I'm recording. A Swedish all-girl band, Audrey, is giving me $1300 for two songs. So I recorded four and I will give them the two best ones. The other two will probably end up on MySpace. I'm still recording the vocals and I'm being light-hearted about it- I'm not in ultra-perfectionist mode where every phrase must be exactly aligned with the other. This is about capturing a vibe as quickly as possible.
Its very humid out and the AC makes my knees ache. But all the studio equipment makes it so hot, I get restless legs.
I want to photograph empty chairs, they remind me of bodies for some reason.
I take photos with my camera and send it as a text message to this blog- its the only way I can do it these days. I feel like I'm tearing up an exotic country, dodging bullets just to send these shattered missives to loved ones and enemies alike. These smoke signals and coded bomb threats, designed to pleasantly interrupt daily life.
Went to the fountain and watched the model train go through the village. Gave the girls a ride to work. Wishing I would have stuck around yesterday and talked to old friends. But was too upset.
Two flourescent yellow-green canaries, roadside. Dead Child songs keep flowing to me and I trap them. The postman makes a mistake and delivers someone else's copy of 'Outdoor Living' so I read about the best shotguns of 2006.
I picked up the Pony in Orange County and started driving east. Today I was on I-40 for ten hours- through the Painted Desert, the Petrified Forest, and stopping to check out the 50,000 year old Meteor Crater. Photos of bison and video of sunset behind, pajamas and sleep ahead. Blessed with good fortune, I put the Pony Girl to sleep.