I thought long and hard about it

and felt like crying. I was cruel, punishing. but she saw something in me, she never gave up. never lost hope when I never had any to begin with.

I'm lucky to know that kind of loyalty. hell, I wouldn't have stuck around if I had to date myself.

maybe I was testing her, see if she could bend and not break. prove your love, prove it.

what a prick.

I have to remind myself to not take things for granted, things are very good now. we almost never argue these days.